9/11/20-10/6/2020 is etched in my mind.

For the first 9 days of hospitalization at CRMC (Capitol Region Medical Center, Jefferson City, MO), my husband Bob gradually suffocated from covid with the “standard of care” & had to go on a ventilator (9/17/2020) even though additional treatment (IV vitamin C & IV glutathione)was requested by & available from Bob’s family physician by day 3–the hospital & doctors on staff REFUSED TO ALLOW ANY OTHER TREATMENT (HCQ was requested on 9/15/2020 & was also refused). I cried & begged (for 17 more days) & tried to get a lawyer, any lawyer, to help me make the hospital give Bob the additional treatments his family physician was willing to provide since their “standard of care” protocol (REMDESIVIR 5 day course completed 9/16/2020, steroids, antibiotics. It was obviously failing as his body slowly shut down.

On October 3, 2020, they call & state that we can come into the hospital to see Bob—after 22 days of refusing him the care he needed to survive, they allow me & my son to see him after telling me “his pupils are no longer responding to light”.

On Oct 4, 2020, they order blood work in the morning (which is defined as an invasive procedure since blood must be drawn), yet that evening at a (legally recorded) meeting with the pulmonologist in charge of Bob’s care, that pulmonologist refuses my request for an EEG to determine brain function.

Despite explaining that I wanted the EEG for my peace & information in order to decide about whether removing Bob’s intubation was indicated, my request was flatly refused—leaving me only to surmise that they had something to hide or wanted the bed empty (revenue is maximized with bed turnover) since an EEG is not invasive, costs little, & would confirm the need to extubate (since “his eyes weren’t responding to light”) VERSUS drawing blood that same morning (10/4/2020) being invasive.

On Oct 6, 2020, those same doctors & hospital who denied my husband access to any other treatments except their failed “standard of care” act as if it’s nothing that I’m the one who must sign for them to pull the ventilator tube, and they act as if it’s nothing that I & my son must stand there & watch the one & only love of my life take his last 3 breaths as his heart stops beating.

MY HEART BROKE & A PART OF ME DIED THAT DAY TOO WHEN BOB’S BODY DIED.

I CANNOT & WILL NOT EVER FORGET THE MURDEROUS ACTIONS OF THE DOCTORS & HOSPITAL AT CRMC