My mom began having COVID-19 symptoms around December 17, 2021. We sought medical attention on Christmas day, 2021, and she was admitted to the hospital that same day.

She and I were both sick during the middle of December, 2021.  Two days later, my mom started coughing.  I went and had a test for COVID-19, which was positive, so I feared for my mom.  We tested her on an oximeter and it read in the 80’s.  Against my mom’s wishes (she did not want to go to the hospital), I called the paramedics.

The paramedics were very rude – they yelled at us to get on our masks.  When they saw the ivermectin on her night stand, they said, “You shouldn’t have this,” and they took it from the table.  I followed the paramedics so we could get a DNR signed.

On December 27, 2021 my mom was texting me and begging me to take her out of the hospital.  Because she wanted to come home, I had everything with hospice set up to bring her home.  Then, I received an unusual call from her doctor who said, because my mom was doing so well, it would be better is she stayed at the hospital.

At first they gave her steroids, but I was concerned it would shut down her immune system; the nurse said it would open her lungs.

Five days after the phone call from the doctor, on December 31st, I received a phone call saying that my mom had a horrible night.  They said my mom wanted to get off the Bi-pap and die.  She had had a horrible night on the Bi-pap.

On January 1, 2022, my mom wanted to die, so she took off the Bi-pap.  At the very last second, she agreed to be put on the ventilator.  The doctor said we were part of the problem because she had a slim chance of surviving.  It was a horrible, awful experience.

After Mom had been on the vent for the second week, they said she was not able to be on the vent longer than two weeks.  Mom did not want to be vented and she did not want to be in any kind of nursing home situation.

My brother was upset because Mom and me did not want her to be placed on the vent and we were not “vaxxed.”  My family – my brother and aunt have not spoken to me since my mom died.

I was very suicidal the first year after her death.  I have done multiple therapies.  EMTR – keep trama when it came up.  If my mom had died from cancer, they would have acknowledged it.

Mom was in the hospital for four days, and then they decided to give her a COVID-19 test.  It was 12/29/21, because I brought it up to doctors.

My mom was isolated from seeing me, which caused me much distress.  It was very traumatic fighting with the hospital.

After they took off the vent, it took my mom five hours to die.  At the same time, my brother was screaming and using profanities at me through an iPad.  My mom had to hear all this while she was passing.  To say the least, I was horrified.

Things had changed since my mom died.  I have not been able to work a normal job for over three years.  I stay shut-in and barely function.  I have no energy to get up.  After her death, I also began having pain in my wrists, which left me unable to use my hands for over nine months.  Now, the pain has finally subsided.

I have suffered severe grief, and I do not have the same energy.  I feel like a shell of my former self.  Since then, I have begun using and teaching Reiki therapy, which had helped.

COVID-19 is evil, not only all the lives it took, but it destroyed families and polarized the world – intentionally.